Becoming Mom
/“You created me as much as I created you”
Becoming a mom is the most powerful, earth-shattering, life changing thing to have ever happened to me. People will tell you that your life will never be the same, but there is no way to begin to contemplate what is about to happen.
Through all my years of schooling - we are talking a lot of school - I never felt fulfilled. Law school left me questioning who I was going to be, not knowing.
Yet, the moment the nurses handed you to me, I felt complete and became the person I was always meant to be - a mom.
In that moment it was as if my heart was suddenly existing outside of my body and I have never felt more full.
Since those early days I have never been more exhausted. Loving with all your being is draining. It causes you to worry too much, sleep too little, and play too hard. It also causes you to have the time of your life.
I could never have imagined that midnight feedings and hours spent rocking you to sleep would be my happy place. But they became just that. Keeping you close and safe became my happy.
I love being a mom. I love constantly being needed and wanted and trusted. I love reading, and playing all day, learning about trucks, and splashing in puddles. I love being with you all day and I miss you when I go do "me things."
You frustrate and confuse me and challenge my thinking on a daily basis. You have taught me so much, not just about cars and trucks (although I know a lot about cars and trucks), but about love and life, patience and trust, and who I am.
Thank you for making me the person I am today, the person I was always meant to be.
Thank you for making me your mom.
xoxo - Mamma
